Sunday, March 3, 2013

One Month Update!

Hey guys it is me! Miss me?...you didn't even know I left did you...bitches. Well it is a nice Sunday and I just thought that I might update all of you. What has happened..still hang out with my weird friends...umm ya...pretty much it. I mean school is fine I guess...its not like the worst thing in the world. We had our half semester grade things so we had a half day on Friday so I mean it wasn't that terrible. Zoe and our friend Josh came over and hung out, later my friend Maddy came over and me, her, and Zoe went on Omegle and chatted with random people. Everyone was complimenting on their looks but this guy said I was the hot one and not to sound weird or anything..but it made me feel like I was special. We chatted with this guy for an hour and he wouldn't show us his face and he wanted me to sit on the toilet alone while we talked to him so...we stopped talking to him. Subtract all the penises and creepy old men we saw on there...it was a fun night. We went to Subway and ate at our schools turf field and Zoe and Maddy called random people and made weird sex noises...those are my friends.

I am actually like stressed out all the time. I am "secretly" seeing a councilor and she is helping me with my anxiety. Many of you people don't probably know this about me but I have HORRIBLE anxiety and it tends to make me break down a lot for no reason. I used to take like medicine for it but that never really helped. It's basically like I get anxious over stupid things and that makes me break down and sometimes it makes me take anger out on the people whom I trust the most. The thing is that my mom also has anxiety so when we both get in a big hissy fit, it isn't pretty. The thing is that only a few people know about my anxiety and when I have an anxiety attack I just quietly walk to the bathroom and just calm down. I used to not deal with it as well. Cutting and drinking I think was the solution, but now since I'm all sobered up I can just take some yoga breathes and then pipe the fuck done. The only people I think know about it is Guy and Nick. Usually Nick talks me through it and hugs me afterwords, Guy will do the same thing. I can say I have like the best guyfriends in the world. Thanks :)

Nothing else really happened...but I'll update soon and I have to go cause I'm going to go see a musical and ya...